forgiven

I wrote this a week after I went to Dumaguete and you messaged me on facebook, I don’t have enough courage to send this to you before because I just really don’t know how to :)

Hi Jom!

Hope all is well. We haven’t talk and see each other for 6 long years. How were those past years?

…how was your family?

…how were your son and your wife?

…how was your life after me?

I’m really sorry for the tough actions I've showed when you first approached me on facebook. Forgive me if I have to be harsh on you, I hope you understand that the pain you brought in me is not a joke that can easily remove the bad memories and now a scar. Sorry if it took me 5 years to forgive you for all the things you've done, sorry if I missed to tell you how thankful I am to have you before and to thank you for the good memories you tend to share with me.

I’ll let you know what happened after you left. Nothing to feel about okay? :)

It was November 2008, supposed to be our 5^th year anniversary when you were no longer texting me, at first I thought it was normal but suddenly days goes weeks, weeks goes months, months goes years and years reaches end. That time I learned to wait. My 20^th birthday came without you greeting me, I was hopeful that time that you will come and pick me up on school or at least text. But then, I waited for no one.

I spent most of my time crying on classroom wondering where you are during those days. Again, I’m still waiting. My friends told me to visit you at your house and confront you but I was so afraid to see and face the truth. I refused their suggestions to see you and decided to wait again because I believe in you.

Holiday season came and I’m still waiting for you. I keep on texting you hoping that you will answer me back. Everyone told me that you already have someone by then, it was so painful but I have to accept that you were no longer in love with me and so I decided to move on.

Back then, it was really difficult to accept my fate with you. I moved on full of anger and hatred, telling myself that I will never ever forgive you. But as years goes by, I learned to forgive people. I understand the essence of life and how to nurture it...and so I forgive.

5 years after without any reason, you messaged me on facebook. Honesty, I really don’t know what to say, because for me you are not existing and already forgot 4 years of my life shared with you.

I have to speak straight forward and rude. Sorry. I thought I can stand with conviction that I’m rude but I can’t and it gets difficult to pretend when you keep on telling me that “hindi ako sanay na ganyan ka kataray” because yes I am not mataray. I was so surprised that you still knew my boo-boos about milk and butterflies.

You’re forgiven :)  it’s been half a decade now so it’s about time to forget those. Don’t worry I’m sincere. I wish you a happy and fulfilled life, Jom. Give your son a good future and your partner a good life. I hope you learned all your lessons. I am not expecting you to be my friend, it might be awkward for you so don’t worry I understand. Thank you for spending time reading this.

Wishing you all the happiness,

Happy

life

All of them seem so happy with their respective lives now; one is happily married and starting a new life with his wife and soon to be a father; whereas, the other one had a kid named after to my idea. I am indeed happy for them. But I can’t hide my feelings, how about me? Prior to their lives today they had ME. But where am I right now? Who am I? Who’s with me?

6 years ago, I had someone in my life that is very unpredictable. Well, it’s just a puppy love yet turned into a horrible relationship. He got someone pregnant—then we lost our 4-year relationship. In just a snap, everything went wrong. It took us 5 years to clarify things. 5 years for further explanation, 5 years for the sincere apology and 5 years to speak out what is really all about. It came along that I had to forgive him, this is just me maybe we both had our mistakes but he deserved to be forgiven. I wish you all the best, Jom. May you give your son a meaningful and happy life.

2 years ago, I loved a guy who never surrenders on me, who never asked for something in return, someone that is sincere and lovable. But similar to a daily soap opera, our love story ended because of very shallow reason. Now, he is happily married and soon to be a father. All the best, Chard. Let your high hopes and spirit be your weapon in raising your own family.

While here I am, waiting for my own fate. I know God created someone for me; I know one day someone will bump in front of me. Someone that will change the story of my life, someone that will change my surname for sure :) . In God’s gracious time, I know I’ll meet him.

Hopeful,

Me

hindi mo na ako kailangang hanapin pa

kung ito na ang huli kong liham

ayoko syang masayang sa isang paalam
sa isang paalam
dahil ako ay mabubuhay sa yong mga alaala
at sa puso mo, diwa ko'y titira
di mo na ako kailangang hanapin pa
pikit ka lang sinta, ako ay nariyan na

sa buhay mang ito o sa kabilang mundo
hanggat may pag asang dumadaloy sa akin at sa yo
hanggat pagibig ay panig sa atin, kumagat man ang dilim
wag mangamba, dahil liwanag tayo ng isa't isa

o lakambini ko, buhay ng buhay ko
san ka man patungo, dalhin mo ako
wag ka nang matakot, mundo'y hayaan nang umikot
darating din ang panahon ng hinahon

di mo na ako kailangang hanapin pa
pikit ka lang sinta, ako ay nariyan na

sa buhay mang ito o sa kabilang mundo
hanggat may pag asang dumadaloy sa akin at sa yo
hanggat pagibig ay panig sa atin, kumagat man ang dilim
wag mangamba, dahil liwanag tayo ng isa't isa

let it go

I really can’t imagine that everything will be done just like this…

As much as I wanted to recall every good thing happened to us it only ended up into anger.

I can still remember how we both started, I am actually sitting on the actual place that you and I were talking and getting to know each other. Sadly, I am sitting alone here today…waiting for no one—anymore.

Actually, I really don’t know what to feel. Is this anger? Maybe yes, it all went out wrong. Everything is a lie and it breaks me down to hell. From the very beginning, I told you to be transparent, I told you to be at least a good friend of mine—but you didn’t took it seriously.

Yes, I am over you. I don’t know how will I react when I saw you again someday, I don’t even know if I can still utter. Maybe it’s really time to forget everything. Let’s just pretend that we never knew each other. This is the most painful heartbreak that I had in the past. Sorry but I can’t forgive you for now—maybe in a few years’ time.

Time will heal all these pain that you brought in me. But I know this will help me to be a better woman. Thank you Poy for all the good memories that we had. I know for sure God created someone for you to love—and so do I. Hope this failure be a lesson for both of us. Be contended. Be honest. Be faithful. Be happy and be a good friend.

It was nice meeting you though. Thank you for sharing you days with me.

Saying goodbye forever,

Chi

salamat

Dearest,

Before I finally say goodbye to you, I'm not saying that I'm defensive nor not yet over you but you know that you don't have enough courage to see me and so I decided to write a letter.

I would like to thank you for being part of my life, thank you for accepting me in my most craziest thing, in the ugliest side of my attitude and for making me a much better person. Gusto kong malaman mo na isa ka sa pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko, marami man akong naging pagkukulang sayo, patawarin mo sana ako. 

Salamat sa tatlong taon ng pagmamahal at pagaalaga na binigay mo. Hindi ko inakalang tatagal ng tatlong taon ang away-bati nating relasyon, akala ko nga pang 2 months lang tayo dahil ang OA mo sakin. Hindi ko man laging nasasabi noon pero sobra sobra ang pasasalamat ko kay God nang makilala ka para mahalin ko ng higit pa sa sarili ko. Pasensya ka na kung may mga bagay tayong hindi mapagkasunduan sabi mo nga brave ako--hindi ako natitinag ng kahit anong problema. Brave ako dahil alam kong may isang katulad mo na masasandalan ko pag naging mahina ako. 

Thank you for making me feel that I deserve to be loved not just love but to be well loved. Salamat sa walang sawang pagsundo at paghatid sa school man o sa office, salamat sa napakahaba mong pasensya sa kakulitan ko, sa pagiging moody ko pag "dalaga" ako, sa pagiging matigas ng ulo ko at napakarami pa. Kung may isang bagay akong hindi makakalimutan yun ay ang mahigpit at sincere mong yakap. Salamat sa yakap mong nakakaalis ng pagod at takot, salamat sa napahigpit at napakasarap na yakap mong nagpapaalala na hindi ako nagiisa na may isang katulad mo na hindi ako iiwan o pababayaan kahit anong mangyari, sa biglaang yakap mo na sobrang minahal ko, sa yakap mong nagsasabi na hindi mo ako iiwan. 

Noon, inisip ko--pano na ko? wala ka na, pano na ko? wala na yung taong sobrang mahal ko, pano na ko? wala na kong masasabihan na mahal na mahal na mahal kita.

Salamat sa mga memories na binuo mo kasama ako. Minsan ko ng sinabi sa sarili ko--hinding hindi ko hahayaan mawala ka, hindi ako aalis o mawawala

Paalam na, siguro nga hanggang dito na lang tayo, siguro nga hindi ako ang the one para sayo, siguro nga kailangan mong mawala sa buhay ko para marealize ko ang tama para itama at ang mali para itama.

Salamat.

-
Me

Serenity

Dear God,

All I want to have is a stable life, a simple yet happy family and a partner that will love me and stay with me endlessly. Now, I'm on a state of life that is so confusing. Remember the last time I talked to you? I cried. I cried because I feel so ashamed because somehow, I forgot you.

God, I'm not in a hurry but please let me see the person who will be with me on the next chapter of my life. Somethings bothering me, does he still love me? does he still remember me? I want to talk to him, maybe I just need to hear that everything is over. Then maybe I would stop. But I need to stop. Stop. Stop. Slowly.

I have to move slowly. Continuously chasing him is not helpful. I should stop doing this, I need to focus on what life bring in. 

God please let me find my own happiness. I'll wait 'til the right time comes. 

What's your plan?

After graduating, all I wanted to do is to be part of a production team wherein I can interact with the people behind TVCs and Animations—then God grant me what I wish. I met some directors, assistant directors and director of photography which lead me to work closely with media agencies. After 3 months of sleepless nights and hard core shoots I decided to leave the production team I asked for.

Afterwards, I asked myself what I really want to do in my life after college, what I really want to achieve beyond my imagination and then I realized I wanted to be in an advertising company—again, wherein I can interact with the people behind Magazines—then God grant me the “advertising” thing. After 8 months of sales projections, left and right presentations, grave issues and worth saving friendship I decided to quit for the second time, it’s just that I don’t want to stress my life over thousands and millions worth of sales.

Later on, I intently asked myself “WHAT DO I REALLY WANT” well maybe sales is not for me. Then, I asked God again—I want to be in a safe zone of this career not right after I realized that sales is for self-motivated people only or maybe I’m just stupid and desperate to think like this. Then God grant my prayer. After two months of unemployed mode, I enjoyed hanging out with friends, travelling with family—enjoying life to the fullest.

Then, I became part of this super confidential-so quiet-so minimal knowledge-spooky PR company. I stayed for almost 1 year but I got bored due to monotonous work and robotized system of the company until I felt like I waste almost one year of my life reading newspapers, scanning ads and editing—continuous boredom indeed.

Right after that, I worked again in publishing company, I got terror boss but she’s the best, I didn’t hear anything bad from her she is my savior every Monday meeting. I met people and make them as good friends until now. Though there are times that salaries are delayed we still keep on holding that the company will provide what we need.

At his very moment, I’m in this state of confusion that I want to leave again—because of the depression over quota, there is no such thing as stable in this journey. Being part of this prestigious company is already an honor unfortunately, AGAIN, sales is not for me I must say. After more than 3 years of working in advertising world, I then again realized that this my world. Advertising is my bread and butter, it nurtures me and thought me a lot of things in life, advertising contribute so much knowledge and strategies in my life, it made me appreciated that there’s no easy job in this lifetime, it made me understood that everyday should be a very productive and hard working day for each of one of us doing a campaign and the people behind every project. So when you see an ad in a magazines, newspapers, TV, radio and in all platforms of media please give attention to read and appreciate it, that makes us proud :) we gave all our best shots, those sleepless nights, liters of tears, series of meetings, hundreds of revisions, shootings on a weekend and holidays all of these are priceless. I owe everything to advertising and to those people who trained me well to be in this position right now.

I am planning to leave again on the 16^th of the following month. With or without rebound I’ll leave because I’m already decided. Thing is, am I matured enough to think this way?? I someone say this “you can teach someone to be a good sales person, but you can’t teach them maturity”.

 

Moral lesson guys:

1.     Identify your WANTS and NEEDS— Remember! You work because you want to earn money, you work because you sustain your families’ needs, because you’ll able to pay your credit card bill, you can buy hi-tech gadgets, you can do everything you want because you earn your own money but mind you kid! Money can’t buy KNOWLEDGE.

2.     Don’t be afraid to try something new- This is a classic example for the fresh grads out there. Choosing your desired job and position is not bad but don’t be so picky as well when it comes to work. It’s not that you’re not qualified but you are just lack of experience. Remember! This is win-win situation. The company needs your service and you need the company for experience purposes.

3.     Cherish your stay in the company- This is a must guys. For sure you will meet nice, sweet, terror, rumor monger, cool, hardworking etc. It’s a matter of how will you handle this instances. Cherish everyday of your life in the company.

(Oh I miss writing) please feel free to leave a message and I’ll do my best to answer all your queries :)

Have a blessed day guys! :)

love and understanding

ako na yata ang pinakaunderstanding na tao sa mundo (please lang wag mo kong taasan ng kilay, syempre biro lang yun). bakit kamo? anim na buwan na ang nakalipas mula nang iniwan ako ng taong inakala kong makakasama ko habang buhay.

punong puno ako ng panghihinayang. mali ba ako? siguro. kaya nga kami naghiwalay eh. 

ayoko nang tapusin ang kwentong ito dahil sa tatlong bagay:

1. dapat ko na syang kalimutan 

2. dapat akong maging masaya sakanya sa kanyang napiling buhay at

3. dapat hanapin ko ang tunay kong kasiyahan

habang ginagawa ko ito, tinig ni Sir Noel Cabangon ang background music ko. simple lang, gusto ko kasing umiyak at namnamin ang sakit na hindi ko dapat iniisip. para lang akong praning dahil naghahanap ako ng dahilan para masaktan at magalit.

gone

I'm alone. I'm left. I'm disappointed. God you know how hard it is for me to accept this. I am trying to be strong not just for myself but for my future. He left me--actually we left each other willingly.

 "do not put your happiness in someone else's hand, because when he left so as your happiness"

granted

 Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.

-Jeremiah 33:3

I miss writing on my blog. I was so busy paying attention on my new job. Just this morning I realized I’m turning 24 soon, and then I think again, a few months ago I remember promising myself to look for a job wherein I’ll have a stable source of income. My 6^th month is on December, and on the same month I’ll be turning 24. What life will bring to me? That I don’t know…that will surely depend on God’s will. I am praying again for the progress of my career in advertising, as I am embracing this path I am taking. I love the environment, I love the nature, I love the pressure, I love the people, I love the salary of course and these things I love were all at my prayers few months ago. God really knows what is good for us; I am very much thankful for all the blessings I’m receiving. From my family, my friends, neighbors, colleagues, partner, work, pet, etc. So true, if you ask, he’ll answer. Just come. Just ask. Just pray. He will never let you down. :) keep praying everyone. 

hold on

dearest,

though there were times you made me cry and gets me upset, i want you to know that i am giving you one last chance-- chance to prove me that i am wrong, chance to bring back the trust that you broke for just a second, chance to bring back my feelings towards you. you know how very disappointed i am for what you did, you witnessed how many tears i'd shed that night because i can't explain my feelings, i can't imagine you did it-- you did cheat on me you shit!, you know i have respect and trust on you but now it all fades away. before that night ended, you promised me  you'll be honest, that you'll say everything and not going to hide again. since i love you i believe...again. but when i'm alone i realized it was also me made a mistake, i didn't let you explain (but you dins't even utter any) :( so sad why men are like this. you keep on promising and we stupid make believe. dearest, let me remind you and i am damn so serious THIS WILL BE YOUR LAST CHANCE! hey please pay attention on this :( i love you but please be careful, include me on your decisions, consider me on actions. you know how hard it is for us, let's work on this and save until we can-- but if not, let's not push it through, it's awkward to love when we're in doubt. i'm still hanging on...i still believe...i will...as long as i can...as long as we can...as long as you love me...

answered prayer

thank you God for granting my wishes, finally. i know this opportunity you gave will help me to be a better person and it'll mold me into much grown colleague to others. i promise to treasure this new career you've given, i'll strive and work hard to prove myself that i can do things beyond my limits. yesterday, my final interview for the vice president for marketing and luckily, my experiences impressed her. and so, they gave mo job offer. that very short moment made me a quick decision to sign and accept the responsibility as advertising account manager. i thank you God for your faithfulness in me. way back weeks ago in st. catherine cathedral in dumaguete, i prayed for this opportunity. i talked to you as if your just in front of me, i said please give me job wherein i can excel on my chosen field and earn money so i can help others especially the rbi kids. i thank you God for everything, i promised to keep my promise, i promise to work so hard to keep this job on my hand, i promise to be a good person, i promise to help others. i may broke some of my promises but you i know i'm trying to be a good human. Lord, thank you is not enough, i know you know how much thankful i am for this. please help those who pray for a career growth as well. guide me God to this new journey i am taking to. please lead me and give wisdom so i can work passionately. again, i thank you God for this new career. thank you. iloveyou. 

friendship

June 2006, 12 different people, 12 different attitudes, 12 different stories, 1 school, 1 classroom but 1 magnificent group formed.

We were freshman then when we crossed each other’s roads. Some were shy, some were not, some were funny, some were corny, some were rocks, some were lonely, some were left, some were afar but all of us were bound to be part of each other’s lives. ATOR, that’s what we called our barkada, like many other groups out there, destiny tests us and our capability to keep our friendship alive. There were times when we felt tired and decided to let go of this friendship, but we strongly believe in our pride, attitude and faithfulness to each other fortunately, we won the battle against destiny’s tests. 6 years and counting—that’s our goal, we promise to keep the fire on our friendship. By that and through that I learned that friendship is like a family it is a never-ending responsibility, therefore, treasure it with all your heart, keep it with all your soul and cherish every moment your with them after all we’ll realize that the friendship we've made many years ago is worth fighting for. I’m very grateful for having a barkada that laughs with me, cry with me, stays with me and listens to me whenever I needed to.

believe. pray. rejoice

lord,

please, if this is mine let it be.
please give me wisdom, courage, confidence and knowledge.
you know i pray so hard for this
please guide me
please give me this opportunity
i hope this path is the right direction i am taking
i know you'll give me what is good
i believe in you oh god
please guide me
thank you.

me

acne cure soap with tea tree oil

since i had a hard time looking for a product that will easily remove my zits, i went to a derma clinic and purchased this soap called Acne Cure's Pimple Soap with Tea Tree Oil (i haven't seen any pictures of it so forgive me) its very affordable but the smell isn't so good. initial reaction was mild, if you have a serious pimples and the redness is obviously severe it helps zits to dries up easily after 2 to 3 washes it dries up. hope this will work on you too. :)

confused.

i was a bit puzzled with what i have done this past 3 days. i have these questions inside my head

...am i negligent?

... am i hurting someone else's feelings? 

...am i being too selfish? 

... do i really know what love is?

...do i have to quit?

...do i need to...or do i have to?  

i have no idea what comes into my head why did i do that, as far as i remember i know my boundaries in life, i know my responsibilities being a friend and a lover. But why did i do that? i feel so sorry for hiding, for lying on you, for losing somehow feelings. honey i am so sorry for what i've done, maybe its true that i don't know how to love-- that it is only me i love and not you. 

...do i need time? to reflect

...do i need space? to miss you 

...do i need to let you go? to realize how important you are?

...do i need to be single? because im just so tired of being in a relationship 

i am so sorry...

forgive me.

i hope one day if you and i will be together forever, will have the courage to say this lies to you, i want to stay because i love you not because i just don't want to hurt you. 

i am not asking for a perfect relationship, all i want is a person who will stay with me forever.  

...a person who will put a smile on my face everyday

...a person who will comfort me in my most darkest day

... a person who accept me because this is me and i am being me

... a person who will not ask for many changes on me

... a person who won't insist things i don't want to do

... and a person who will appreciate my effort. 

im sorry.

so sorry.

i won't give up

dearest,

this letter is a simple reminder that despite the fact that i am imperfect and ideal girl for you. i won't give up. 4 years ago, you witnessed my most distressing day-  when he left me alone. 4 years after i am now happy with whom i love the most, its you! yes its you. thank you for loving me each day, for brightening up my eyes, for filling my empty heart. thank you for accepting me and our individual differences. this, i promise i won't give up. i will keep on holding your hands tight even on a toughest days, promise me you too will hold my hands tight and won't give up on everything.  just keep holding me. until we can.  until the end. i won't give up on you.

love,
me

question #15 (101 important questions to ask your life )

If you have one week left to live, what would you do? 

If my life has to expire in 168 hours I will surely live my life to the fullest, if there's any superlative statement to define 'fullest' then that should be it. This question is sort tough, but realistic. I always say this on my mind 'lord, if I will die today let me give at least an hour to apologize for what I did, to express my gratitude for what you've given me and a request to look after to the people whom I love the most'. A week is too short but I’ll certainly make it a momentous, extraordinary and blissful closing stage of my life. 

Day 1: I’ll quit on my job. Talk to my immediate superior and leave everything into the right place. Thank them for the laughter, for the good friendship built, for the hard core projects thank you! May you continue to provide our viewers, readers and listeners a one of a kind campaign! Kudos!

Day 2: Fix my room. Scrap my belongings that I don't need anymore, donate the clothes and books to the charity and give my coin bank to the kids on the street. Visit and say goodbye to my angles in RBI, thank you for giving me the chance to extend my purpose in life, you are all my angels. Kids, continue to fulfill your dreams, you may never see me but you never know how much you all touched my life. You are all gifted in many different ways, study hard and keep believing in your dreams. I pray that someday all of you see how beautiful our humanity is. iloveyou angels!

Day 3: Buy gifts for my family, friends and loved ones. Together, we’ll celebrate all important occasions in one day—on my last day. To celebrate your Birthday, Christmas, New Year, Valentines  etc., with me.

Day 4: Spend time with my friends. Out of town. Swimming. Get drunk. Get wild. Anything that means pleasure. Thank them for a good company, for the good friendship they’ve made with me, for molding me into a much grown person, for trusting me their secrets in life. Thank you! And please continue to write on my wall. Greet me during my birthdays, monthsaries, anniversaries and all occasions J

Day 5: Spend time with my love, in my dream land—Batanes. I swear before I die I must visit this smallest province, I want to breathe-in the freshness of his air, I want to walk on his streets, take a pictures on his solid houses (literally), buy and sip a coffee in his popular coffee shop, run like a kid, climb up in lighthouse while the air touches beneath my skin, sit down and look over the sunset in my dream land with my dream better half—the person I want to be with (hopefully). I kiss him with all my love—to feel that I seriously in love with him even his flaws. Hug him so tight to somewhat ease his fear that soon I’ll leave him, that the day after tomorrow he’ll no longer receive any message from me saying that I love him for the rest of my life. That after my leaving he’ll face challenges alone without me saying ‘love, you can do it!’ sorry for my shortcomings, for leaving him this early, for failing to fulfill his dream family with me, for not giving him kids. thank him for being such a wonderful person, for loving me unconditionally, for being my best friend, my lover, my enemy, my partner in crime. thank you for being you. Thank you for making me the princess of this lifetime. In the near future you’ll find someone you can build your dreams with—someone who’ll replace me I hope she’ll love you in her most faithfulness way. iloveyou and always take care of yourself. I’ll be watching over you iloveyou!

Day 6: Spend time with my family. Stay with them for my last day. Laugh with them, cry with them why this will going to happen, hug my muj and puj thank them for giving me a better life—education, life, home, happiness, support...everything! my siblings—for making me their nanny for almost 20 years (haha) may you continue to love our parents, take good care of them they are no longer young they need much attention from you in particular, thank you standing behind me through it all. Our dogs—for putting a smile on my face when they stare on me, the freedom are yours now! No one will make you pinch (sorry J). My nephews—for putting bliss in our family when you both dance, sing, eat, giggle, play etc., continue to study even more harder it’s for your future and always listen to your parents, tito and tita they'll guide you to be a better person. I’ll leave a picture with you both hoping someday you’ll visit me saying ‘tita here I am now, a renowned engineer, or a doctor, or a lawyer, or a pilot, or an artist or any dreams you want to become to as long as you’re happy with what you are doing. (Don’t get married yet!!!)

Day 7: The moment of truth. I’ll go to church. Sit. Look intently. Cry. Pray so hard. Asking for His forgiveness. Confess all my mistakes and accept my differences. Praying that if this day will end without me breathing anymore, look after my loved ones. Guide them each day, shower them more blessings, give them a happy life, hoping that they'll never forget me—that once in their lives I’ve touched them in so many different ways, to include me on their prayers for my peaceful rest in the arms of our God. To please accept me in your kingdom and thank you for giving me 23 years to live with the ideal family, ideal friends, ideal co-leagues, ideal job, ideal lover and ideal people. Thank you God for everything. I surrender my all to you. My time has come and my journey ends J

avery's bucket list

avery :) you are an angel 

an hour ago i was just sitting, yawning, downloading, listening, writing and all of a sudden i saw on yahoo news about this little angel-- avery lynn canahuati, a 5 month old baby from texas. oh god! i was so touched about her story, this little angel has a genetic disease which called SMA or spinal muscular atrophy. i salute to the parents of avery for giving her so much love and affection, a meaningful life even in a short span and unconditional love. may god continue to shower avery's parents more blessings as you help other kids suffering from this disorder. please visit  avery's blog site and keep supporting their campaign :). don't just read-- spread it!  and be aware. 

question #4 (101 important questions to ask your life )

 what are you most grateful in life? ...

honestly, i have gazillion reasons why i am grateful in my life. i am thanking god each day for giving me such blessings like family, friends, education, job, home, etc., and what i am grateful the most is how god give million chances-- chances to make each day different by simply being a better person.